I know it's a crazy idea but...

I want to move. There's a million reason's why i cant move yet, but that shouldn't stop me.
I know that it's crazy idea but i wanna set a date and have a place by that date. I know im not the only person to be involved in the decision, but i hope we can both set a date.
I am inspired by my friend up and leaving in a few week's (without any planning) and i wanna start my new life. I wanna find a place and settle down, and i know it's crazy but i think i want it more than anything else in the world.

I wanted to be a fashion designer.

I am pretty much obsessed with Project Runway. I wanted to be a fashion designer as a teenager, i was always drawing clothes and sketching design's. I still do sometimes, but i realized a long time ago i wouldn't last 5 minutes in the fashion world. I love fashion but i dislike the fashion world sometimes (the un-realistic models, the bitchyness etc). I cant sew either. My passion for fashion is staying a hobby and not something i ever wanna do for a career.

Am i a good girlfriend?

I do wonder if i am a good girlfriend. I can be moody sometimes (especially when im tired) and i get a bit over excited by stupid things and im impatient. I think the fact i worry about my boyfriend (he get's ill quite a bit, bless him) could be classed as being a bit clingy (i hope im not clingy) and i do complain to my boyfriend quite a bit when i have a bad day.
I worry that i am a bitch to my (adorable) boyfriend sometimes and i may push him away by being moody.

Katy Perry.

I love Katy Perry. I love her music and style and the fact she's sassy and fiesty and fun.
There's not a lot i dont like about Katy Perry, except one thing.
Her husband.
I have never been a Russell Brand fan, and never understood what women saw in him. I dont find him funny and i hate the way he talk's.
I dont share Katy's taste in men, but i love / admire her so much that it doesn't matter. She's still one of my idol's.

Why i love Vonda Shepard's music.

Some people wont know who she is, while other's may remember her for being the singer in "Ally Mcbeal."
Vonda Shepard has made two amazing albums "It's good Eve"recorded before "Ally mcbeal"and "By 7:30"made during "Ally Mcbeal" and both albums are full of meaningful and emotional lyrics, and i can identify with most of the song's.
Plus Vonda's voice is filled with emotion and it all add's to the beauty of the songs.
She may not be popular, but she is one of my favourite singer/ songwriters.

Make up products i love.

Collection 2000 kohl eyeliner. Black.
Miss sporty kohl eyeliner. Black.
Bodycare waterproof Mascara. Black.
Nivea lip balm.
Collection 2000 hotlights lip gloss. Number 5.

I mainly get my make up from Boots and Superdrug and Bodycare, and i love Collection 2000 and Miss sporty products and always try out any new products in their ranges. I also like Rimmel cosmetics too.

Columbo.

I love watching Columbo. He is one of my favourite tv detectives (along with Monk, probably my favourite tv detective).
I love how we, the viewer, know who the killer is at the start, and then about 20 minutes in, Columbo arrives and he seems to know instantly who the killer is. He pretends to be a bit dumb and silly, but he's actually very smart. I love how, sometimes, it seem's that the killer is gonna get away with it, and then Columbo just does something and they confess to the murder.

Would 'Cheryl Tweedy' have been as sucessful as 'Cheryl Cole'?.

If Cheryl Cole hadn't married a footballer and spent millions of pound's making herself look beautiful, would she have been as sucessful?.
My thinking is no. She was some chav council estate girl who likes to assualt people in toilets, and has "limited" talents.
I dont think Cheryl Tweedy would have been asked to judge on the X Factor, or have a solo career or be the "nation's sweetheart".
I think Cheryl Tweedy's career would have dried up once 'Girls Aloud' ended.

Savage Garden: Savage Garden album.

I haven't listened to it for a while so i put it on now and i forgot how much i love it.
I think it's one of the best albums ever made. I love every song, and the lyric's are beautiful and meaningful and bittersweet.
"To the moon and back" is my favourite song on the album, closely followed by "Santa Monica"and "Carry on dancing".
I also loved the "Affirmation"album. I think it's a shame they only made 2 albums before they split, as both albums are fantastic (In my opinion).

Come dine with me contestants.

It makes me wonder why people apply to go on "come dine with me" when they hate certain types of food.
This is the show where, basically, you have to eat what's put in front of you.
It's different if you have allergies, but im on about people who seem to like nothing.
I dislike certain foods and that is the reason why you will never see me on "come dine with me".

Baseball Jackets

When they first arrived in the shop's i didn't really like Baseball jacket's, but now i want one.
I thought they were a bit too 'tomboy' for me, but ive seen ton's of girl's wearing them and they do look good. Im thinking when the weather gets a bit better i could wear it over a little top and team it up with jeans. Or wear it with a summery dress and heels.

Exercise.

I am not a sporty person. Far from it. Whenever i watch sport on tv i feel tired just watching them.
There's only about 3 forms of exercise i like. Walking. Not over hills or anything like that, but to the shop's and around the shopping centre.
I also like dancing, im always dancing around the house like a mad woman. Usually to Rihanna or Britney or Lady Gaga.
The other form of exercise i like is sex. I dont need to explain that one more.
Ok im not athletic, but im not unfit either and im happy with that.

Remakes.

Is it just me who feel's that there's nobody in the film/ tv world that has any creativity left? the reason i say that is because there seem's to be a lot of remakes being made.
Dallas, Buffy, Charlie's Angels, The bodyguard and wonder woman are just a few of the remakes we have to look forward to, plus there's lots of thing's already being remade ( A team, Hawaii 5-0, Starsky and Hutch, Miami Vice).
What's going to happen when they've run out of thing's to remake?.

Another poem i wrote : Why?

I wrote this poem to "impress" someone a few years ago (it didn't work). I put it on a website somewhere but i cant remember where lol.

You know i'm in love with you
So you flirt just like a friend.
And i cant let go of the feeling
That i'll be devastated if it ends.
Everytime i think im over you.
You do something to make me fall in love again.
And i fear i wont ever win
Is hurting me your favourite game?

Jackie Collins.

I read my first Jackie Collins novel when i was about 14 and i loved it.
I love how she writes strong, female characters. I know a lot of people think that her book's are tacky, but reading her book's are pure escapism and that's why i like to read.
To relax and take my mind off the world for a while.
After reading a couple of her book's i was inspired to write a short story, then another and another, and that is why Jackie Collins is my favourite author.

Pushy sales people.

I hate how in the shopping centre, you are walking along, just going about your business when some sales person from one of the stall's in the middle of the floor decides to ambush you.
If i was interested in the product, i would go and look at it. I have legs. I dont need to be collected and taken to it. And then, if you stop and listen to them, they wont let you get away.
I get that some of them work on commission, but is that a reason to ambush people?
And is it just me who is annoyed by them?

Is Lady Gaga becoming boring?

I love Lady Gaga's music a lot. When she first became famous i loved her uniqueness and her creativity and the fact that she was a bit outrageous.
But recently ive not been as excited about her style. At the Grammy's she 'hatched' out of an egg, and i just felt like i'd seen it all before.
Everywhere she goes it's another bizzare outfit. I get it's who she is, but, to me, it's getting boring. A lot of artist's re-invent themselves and i wonder will Gaga ever do it? Im thinking probably not.

Inspiration.

I know that a lot of people find inspiration in lots of ways.
Some people find inspiration in building's or art or by nature. I find inspiration in music.
I think of song's as mini stories. And there's a lot of song's that i love, so when i listen to them i ask myself "what is the story of the song?".
When i answer that question, i think about the start of the story, what had happened before the start of the song, and then that's how i get an idea for a story.

A poem i wrote: Crazy.

This is just so crazy
Feel like im going out of my mind.
How can one situation's solution
Be so hard to find?
Thought about doing anything
To get me out of here.
Now i wont be satisfied
Without facing my fears.

Not the best poem in the world, i know, but i just thought i would post a poem on here. I write very short stories so i may post one of them on here too sometime.

Why are some girl's so bitchy?

I was on a bus earlier and three girl's were sitting near me and 1 of the girl's was being really bitchy to 1 of the others.
She was making comment's about her weight, and how she looked, and kept calling her 'odd'.
I know from experience that 'friend's' who are bitchy and make fun of you aren't really friend's at all and it can really affect your confidence.
I just wonder why some girl's have to be bitchy. Do they have to make everyone else feel bad to make themselves feel good?

Today was a good day.

Sometimes it takes very little to realise how happy you really are.
Today i spent time with my boyfriend, at his, alone. It was great to have some 'us' time, and just being able to snuggle up and watch tv, and finding stuff on the internet, and looking for a place to live.
And i know it sound's boring, but today was great and one of the best days ive ever had, and it's made me realise how happy i am.

Eyeliner.

I love eyeliner (especially black). It's one of my make up "must-have's" but i hate liquid eyeliner.
It may have something to do with the fact that sometimes my eyes water sometimes when i put something near my eye, and by the time the liquid eyeliner dries, it's all smudged and i end up looking like a panda (not a good look).
I love Kohl eyeliner though. I find that no matter how my eyes 'are', the kohl eyeliner always applies. And no drying time :-).

I hate the term 'Real Women'.

I really do hate the term ' real women'. The reason i hate it is because every woman is 'real' (unless she had a sex change, and then she wouldn't be so 'real'. I didn't mean that to sound horrible, by the way, so sorry if it does).
The 'reality' is that every woman is different. We come in all shapes and sizes, and we are all 'real'.

The royal wedding.

I must be the only person in the country who couldn't care less about Wills and Kate's wedding.
The way the press go on about it you would think they were the first couple to ever get married.
I get he's the future king and all that, but the fact is Prince Charles gets a turn to 'rule' the country before him, so it's not like he's gonna become king anytime soon.
Maybe the fact im not a royalist is why im not excited by the hype. And also because of the tacky merchandise on sale to 'remember' the day.

Rihanna.

I love Rihanna. I think that her music is fantastic, she is beautiful (she would look stunning wearing a bin liner), and i love her style.
I am, however, a little tired of picking up a magazine and her being in it.
Yes, i get she's popular and the entire population (me included) likes her, but does she really have to be in every single magazine? Is there anything about her we dont already know?.

Size zero models.

Why do catwalk models have to be a size zero?
When will fashion designers realize that women come in all shapes and sizes?
Does the fashion industry not realize that women of all sizes wear clothes, and not just the size zero models who are showing off the clothes?
I think catwalk models should be all sizes and shapes in order to represent the fact that women (who buy the clothes) are all shapes and sizes.

Things that annoy me on tv.

1: Killer's on the news are always described as being 'lovely people'.
2: The 'after you're gone' phrase used in life insurance ads.
3: Endless repeats of 'come dine with me' (even though i love it).
4: Tv announcers talking over the credits of films (when there's a decent song playing).
5: Award shows being filmed days before being shown (and you knowing exactly who wins everything).
7: 'celebrity' reality shows.
I was gonna do a 'top ten' but i couldn't think of ten lol, so its my 'top seven' lol.

Radio stations.

I cant help but wonder why radio stations play the same songs dozens of times a day, and yet there is some fantastic artists out there who get very little, if any, airplay.
I really wish radio stations had the balls to stop playing chart music and actually play less 'manufactured' artists for a change.
There is a lot of great artists around at the moment who deserve the airplay, but do they have to be played every hour? do we have to be force-fed songs just to buy them? is the music really that forgettable?

Could you handle being famous?

We've all thought at some point ( i guess ) that it would be so cool to be famous. Free clothes, adoring fans, cool parties. What would there be to hate?
The paperazzi following you everywhere. Everyone judging what you wear. Being called fat or anerexic. Having no privacy. Having people say awful things about you. Could you deal with that every single day?
I certainly couldn't. I wouldn't last a week in the spotlight. I may be a 'nobody' but i like it that way.

Am i the only person not to have a 'fuck buddy'?

Im not judging anyone, but i was raised to believe that sex meant something, and i didn't just jump into bed with anyone who asked.
Everyone seems to have a 'fuck buddy' except me, and i am cool with that. I dont think i could just have sex with someone without getting feelings for that person (especially if he was good). That's just the way i am.
I know fuck buddies are great for a lot of people, and thats cool, but it's just not for me.

Marilyn Monroe

There is no doubt that Marilyn Monroe is my idol. She is timeless. I dont think she will ever be forgotten, and rightly so.
She was potrayed as a dumb blonde but she was far more than that. She was a survivor.
Reading quotes of her, she seemed to be intelligent and bright, and not just some 'dumb blonde'.
I love how she was feminine, sweet, sexy, innocent and glamourous (everything i hope i am) and Marilyn inspires me everyday to be the person i am: Just a girl who does the best she can.

The Word 'Celebrity' is over-used.

I think the media over use the word 'celebrity'.
Just because someone appeared on a reality show doesn't make them a celebrity. Just because someone was in a band / group 10 plus years ago and has done nothing since, that doesn't mean they're celebrities.
Do we really need Z list 'celebrities'? Would the world come to a sudden end if we didn't have 'celebrity' tv shows anymore? Some of the Z listers seem to make a career out of doing 'celebrity' tv shows, but does that really make them celebrities?